Month: January 2024

“Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, when one only remembers to turn on the light.” I relate to this quote from Dumbledore because from what i think it means is that a person or pet can become so important that they light up your day. When I would be feeling down or upset my cats would come to me and cuddle with me until I would feel better. My cats somehow know when I become upset and stay with me, it’s like in a way they are comforting mentally.

This month I read You’d Be Home Now by Kathleen Glasgow. This book is about two siblings, one is a drug addict that knows he will never survive without drugs(joey) and the other can’t seem to figure who they want to be because she is always living in the shadows of her siblings(Emory/emmy). They have an older sister named Maddie that is a freshman in college, she is the popular older pretty sister. . Everybody knows Maddie and joey but they barely know Emmy. People never really cared to get to know Emmy, she wasn’t the type of person that “amazed” people. Maddie was apart of a dance team in their high school that Emmy is now apart of. In the beginning of this book Emmys brother Joey goes to rehab for summer break to help him get better for the upcoming year for high school. During summer Emmy, Joey, and Joey’s friend Luther went to a party. Emmy saw a girl crying and asked if she was okay, so then the girl(Candy) asked Emmy if she could give her a ride. Emmy went looking for her brother Joey all around the house and could not find him, so she then starts looking for Luther and ends up finding him in the restroom, hooking up with a girl. She asks Luther if he knows where her brother is, he says he doesn’t know but will help her find Joey. They find Joey in a bedroom with a girl. Joey doesn’t look too good. Emmy notices that Joey is on drugs right away. Luther says that Joey won’t be able to drive because of what Luther gave him. Luther gave Joey heroin. Emmy asked Luther what he gave Joey but he wouldn’t answer, Luther was high and drunk at the same time. Emmy was scared to let Luther drive but he looked better than Joey did so she ended up letting him drive. They all got into the car, Emmy, Joey, Luther, and Candy. Luther had been driving really fast and wild and It was snowing at the time, really really hard. Luther and Emmy were in the front seats and Joey and candy were in the backseats. Candy was crying and screaming telling Luther to stop driving but he wouldn’t stop he just kept driving faster. Luther was yelling at Emmy to tell Candy to stop yelling at him. Joey ended up passing out next to Candy. Candy got even more scared, she started pinching Joey to wake up, slapping him, everything she could do but he wouldn’t wake up. Emmy started to get scared but Luther wouldn’t stop driving. Sooner or later they crashed. They crashed really bad, they rolled over and over again till the car just stayed upside down. Luther flew out the window, Emmy broke her leg. Joey was passed out. Candy died. That night had impacted all three of them. When Emmy and Joeys parents found out that Joey overdose. They sent him to rehab.
This book is really heavy and draining but I really liked it and enjoyed reading it because of how intense it can be. My favorite character in the book is Emmy because she is really brave mentally and physically, she goes through a lot and I love how towards the end of the book she learns how to defend herself and how she sets boundaries for herself. “The thing about being invisible is, you’d think it would feel light and airy and easy, no pressure, but it doesn’t. It’s the heaviest thing I’ve ever known.” I really felt this quote because it is the realest thing I have ever read. It is so true and I hate that it is so true. That is one of my favorite quotes in that book.

This year for 2024 I am going to be focusing on the word change. I choose change as my one word for 2024 because I feel I need to be different this year. For examples be more on time, be more productive or be more focused. I need to work on myself, and then I can be better on all of those things.

A person that I really admire and consider my hero is my stepdad. My stepdad stepped up to be a father to me and my siblings when he didn’t have to. He went into a spot that he has never be in before and had no experience of being a dad. He did really helped me when I was going through stuff. He was always very supportive about what I wanted to do and cared about my opinions. When I was struggling with school he would help me and talk things out with me. He works most of the time but always finds things or activities for us to do. He helped my mom when she was at a very dark place so I will always be so thankful for that. Without him me and my family wouldn’t be as stable as we are now .At points me and him argue but in the end I now know that it’s always gonna be him in the end.